Halfway Through the Most Difficult Part

As I sit in our family room thinking about how much we love our new home, I can't help but compare the process of getting here to the process of adoption. Much like buying a house, it was something we always wanted to do. The problem was not only having the means to afford a mortgage but also knowing the right time and the right place to buy and settle, and all took time.

Alan and I have considered the idea of adoption after we had Sam. The idea was never something of a thunderbolt that hit us on the head suddenly. The problem is not only having the means to afford the adoption process but also knowing which avenue to go about it and with which agency. After spending most of our savings on 4 rounds of IUI and essentially 4 attempts at IVF (This doesn't sound as bleak now that we have a Sam to show for) and living on one income, adoption sounds more daunting than promising.

So where are we in the process: It's hard to believe that it's been nearly two months since we sat down and finally decided to pursue the adoption route to grow our little family of three. I was very distraught with the news of my inability to conceive a child that I wasn't even able to talk about adopting a child without losing it, never mind reading/researching on the topic. I was paralyzed in my own misery for nearly a month. Thanks to family and friends' constant encouragement and prayers, God have finally shown me the light at the end of the tunnel. Trouble is, Alan had to be my rock (thank you my love) that he hasn't had the time to grieve himself. Now that I've risen from the grave, Alan has finally been able to breath and deal with his own tunnel. So where are we in the process? At its embryonic (pun intended) stage, albeit not on square one. We have finally gated our pool in the garden, read up on the different avenues of adoption and familiarized ourselves with 2 or 3 agencies.

The next step: Pray. I know it sounds wanting, but we already have the desire and the information. All there is really is the direction (and perhaps time to process all the information in) from God.